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A Day with Daddy

Oct. 12, 2008 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

Daddy wanted me to post some pictures of him and some of the things he does with the girls. 


Reading to Littlest

But to get to that picture, this happened….

Everybody had to get in the picture.  Except Sturdy Gurdy was out in the yard.


Shoe shopping with Daddy.  


Hangin’ with the supermodels in the mall. 

Daddy bought Bug some new shoes while he was at the mall.   He splurged a bit and got these…

I had a bit of a fit that he spent more than Walmart prices, but now Bug loves them, so we can’t take them back.  She likes watching the lights and usually ends up bumping into things or falling down. She’s getting better though.  Big Yellow Dog loves it. He tries to get the lights.   He better not chew them up - he’s too skinny to eat.   Daddy’s only saving grace with the purchase of these shoes is that Littlest can wear them later.  If you divide the price by two, then we have two pairs at Walmart prices - I can live with that.  

First Taste

Oct. 12, 2008 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

Saturday was the big day for Littlest to try out solid food.


Big girl sittin’ in her high chair.


Got my bib on.


Mommy says we’re having warm sweet potatoes for dinner.  Sounds yummy!  Funny thing, she won’t eat any though.  Hmmmm…… (Because it’s disgusting, vile food says Mommy!)


Open up baby.


Hmmm…that’s not my formula with rice cereal.   Not so sure about that. 


Here, give it to me, let me try that again. 


Not so bad.   I said let me help!


If I use my finger, maybe I can get more food in faster. 


Are we all done?  I liked that stuff!

Littlest did wonderfully!   She wasn’t so sure at first, but after a bit I had to wrestle the spoon from her and she would start to cry if I didn’t get it in fast enough.  She picked up pretty fast that she needed to open her mouth for me.  Bug did help me show Littlest what to do.  I was in no way going to put that “food” in my mouth.  I did do the big mouth opening and closing for her, which she and Bug thought was pretty funny.  

I hope Littlest’s hair grows out soon.   It still looks like Bug cut it.

Good Things

Oct. 11, 2008 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

Yesterday ended up being a good day, a long day, but it was good.

Littlest had two appointments up at CDRC/Doernbecher.  The first was an audiology appointment.   They have amazing ways of testing hearing the tiniest of babies.  They can test the response of the acoustic nerve among other things.  Littlest did great in her right ear, but it was a bit decreased in the left.   They found that she had fluid behind the drum on the left and so they think that is causing the slight decrease in hearing.  She will be seen again in six weeks to see if it’s cleared up.  They also have a sound booth that they check to see if she reponds to sounds.   I got to check my hearing in that one too.   I passed, at least I think I did.   The only problem in the sound booth was that both Daddy and I had loudly growling stomachs.  So that started the giggles.   The audiologist probably wondered why Littlest kept looking behind her!

Then after a long wait, we were seen at the feeding clinic.  Littlest’s weight and height is doing great!  They decided that she can go to step two foods and rice cereal for one meal a day.   Also, we can now mix her formula at 20 calories instead of 27 calories.  It was wonderful news.   The ARNP checked Littlest physically and developmentally and she is still a bit behind what a six month old would do (six months is her adjusted age, 9 months actual age).  We already are working on that with the OT.  The nutritionist, ARNP, and speech pathologist  all were exceptionally happy with our million dollar baby!

Since we already were in the big city and had some time before we had to pick up Bug, we decided to actually have fun.   It’s been so long since we’ve done anything like that we didn’t have a clue what to do.   We ended up in the Pearl intending on finding a cool place to eat then window shop.   We’re lame and ate at Baja Fresh because it’s cheap.  Then we browsed around Powell’s and finally went home.   We were parked right next to Anthropologie.  I wanted to go in, but I was afraid I would like what I saw and want to buy, so we did looked in the windows.    It was a good afternoon.  Daddy and I had a chance to spend time with Littlest without Bug and we spent time together, which is rare anymore.  


While waiting for her feeding clinic appointment, Littlest read The New York Times and was horrified by the state of the economy!

Photo Shoot Tuesday - Part One

Oct. 9, 2008 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

Littlest is a hard one to take pictures of.  She is so mobile now, all the pictures are blurry.


Our solemn little girl

Kim will be on vacation this week

Oct. 7, 2008 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

The guy who always calls me Kim is on vacation this week.  So I’m imaging that Kim is on vacation in the Caribbean, Hawaii, or even the French Riviera.  Wait, if she can afford to go to the French Riviera, why on earth would she be working here! 

Yesterday Bug had her 18 month doctor’s appointment and shots.  She is still only 23 pounds, 13 ounces and is about the 50th percentile.  Her height is 31.5 inches and is in the 25th percentile and her head is above the 50th, but better than it used to be.  She is doing very well developmentally and physically.   She had two shots and a flu shot.   Littlest got a flu shot too.   Poor Bug is so sensitive when it comes to anything happening to Littlest. Daddy took Bug out while Littlest got her shot.  Littlest threw up a little bit before the shots and Bug started crying and was very upset.  Of course Daddy was out of the room and I had a tough time keeping Littlest from getting puke everywhere and still trying to make it be no big deal for Bug and to console them both at the same time.  After the shots, they both only cried a little bit and had a good, early evening.   Daddy put Bug to bed for me and did it successfully amazingly fast.  I blame the shots for that one. 

Bug has been quite the character lately.   She does some pretty silly things.  Early this morning, she was awake and crying.  So that I could still get another hour sleep, I brought her to bed with Daddy and I.  Apparently Daddy’s snoring, which was unusually quiet for him, was bothering Bug.  She would turn to Daddy, and put her finger to her lips and say “shhhhhh, shhhhh.” (When she does this, she manages to put her finger up her nose at the same time.) She did this several times until I was laughing out loud and that woke Daddy up.  He grumpily asked what he was doing wrong.   Early in the week in the middle of the night, Bug let out a huge fart and then immediately afterwards said a satisfying “ahhhhh.”   That girl has been hanging out with Daddy way too much.   She also has been mothering her baby doll a lot.  She feeds it dog food and she is constantly laying the baby down and putting a blanket over it and saying “nigh, night.”   Sometimes it’s tough love, the baby gets thrown down and then covered and she always positions the baby on it’s face.  I try to tell her that she has to put her baby on her back to avoid SIDS, but Bug won’t have it.  

One final thing about Bug.  She visited the Toddler Room at daycare yesterday.   She will  permanently move there in a few weeks, but they do a slow transition.  She loved it and did very well, athough, someone bit her finger when she was trying to push them away.  She didn’t really want to come home, but another child wanted to go home with me and that was not okay with Bug. 

Littlest is just being super cute and laughs a lot.   She was sitting on my lap on the couch with Sturdy Gurdy next to us.  She started reaching out for Gurdy and Gurdy would lick her hand.  Littlest thought this was fun, so then she would lunge at Gurdy’s nose, Gurdy would lick her hand, and Littlest would giggle and laugh time after time.   Usually Gurdy doesn’t like to be bothered, but she was a good dog. 

We survived another day, barely, Thank God!  Onward to tomorrow!

Tough Love and World Card Making Day

Oct. 5, 2008 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

What a day today was.  Poor Bug had a rough go of it this evening.  She has been fussy, not eating much and has had very restless sleep lately. I suspect the four new canine teeth are the culprit.  Anyhow, after I got home this evening, we were eating dinner and I, rather stupidly, let her sit on the dining room chair by herself.  Can you see it coming a mile away?  Well yeah, duh!  Anyhoo, she did fine for a long time and then crash, bang, bam, WHAAAAHHHH!!!!!  She fell off the chair and there was copious amounts of blood.  Oh, I forgot, before that happened, I gave her a bite of food with my fork and poked her gum with it and then she got a bite without me that was too hot, THEN she fell.  She cut her lip, probably bit it.  You how things like that happen in slow motion and you feel like it takes you forever to respond.   I felt awful.   I think it really startled her the most, but she did bleed a lot.  She went back and forth between Daddy and I getting love and kisses.   She finally recovered and a little while later while she was peeking in on Littlest in the bassinet, she apparently fell and hit her head pretty good.   I was in the garage and didn’t see that one happen.  The poor girl.   She cheered up when she got a bonus bath.  I let her play for a long time.   She has a swollen lip, but luckily it wasn’t too bad.

In fact now that I look at this picture of her, her upper left lip is only slightly swollen and there a little bit of a bruise.   She is growing up so fast, it’s unbelievable. 

Littlest on the other hand faired a little bit better.   I only managed to maim her a tiny bit.  I’m not sure how, but when I was laying down with her and feeding her, she ended up with a scratched lip or something.  She was having such a good day otherwise.  She, too, is growing up fast.  Nine months old already and over fourteen pounds.  She is an amazing little girls who loves to laugh out loud. 

Yes, her sleeper is a bit too small and her bad haircut hasn’t grown out yet.   I’ve been doing the clothes transition again.  It always seems to be a huge ordeal.  Since certain brands of clothes are smaller than others, I started putting them with the size they really fit and then I have to wash the new size clothes coming in from the garage, then wash and put the old ones away.   I don’t know how people with five kids or even three kids do it.

Today was World Card Making day.  So to celebrate, I drove out to the outer edges of the earth and met Auntie Brat and Sweet Smiling Girl to make 9 cards and a card holder.  It was a beautiful drive out there, but it was far!.  I used to be such a perfectionist when it came to making cards.  Auntie Brat could make 10 in the time I made part of one.  These stamp camps have been good for me, no time for perfection. 


The purple one is my favorite.


This is a folder to hold all the cards. 

First Haircut

Sep. 19, 2008 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

Today I was scheduled for a haircut and got to thinking that maybe Littlest should have her bangs trimmed. The poor girl wakes up from a nap and can’t see through the tangled bangs. So after my trim, Littlest had her first haircut. The next client took the pictures, so they are a bit fuzzy.


Little Miss Mophead ready for the transformation.


Not quite so happy. She kept moving her head around and so her hair got shorter and shorter!


The final result.

Her hair doesn’t look quite that short, but it is short and she looks like a boy. The Devine Miss M is a wonderful hairdresser, but Littlest was a challenge I must say. Her hair will grow out and the length is all the same now, so we have a good base. More hair bows and headbands are in her future. I know that her ears stick out a bit, but the short hair makes it worse. Oh well, she is still growing into herself, so maybe it will change.

I did notice one thing about Littlest. Since she has been so protected by us and usually when she’s around people, it’s to do some medical thing to her, so she doesn’t warm up to people as quickly as Bug does. She will give little smiles, but it takes some work to get her to do her big grin. She also startles really easy. Tonight after the hair cut, I took her with me to the grocery store and did with her what I have always done with Bug. We go through the baby clothes and the toy section and I hold things up for her to look at and see what she likes best. With Bug, I could hold up two things and you would know which she liked better. Littlest seemed to be very overwhelmed by it. Even when I introduced one item, took it away, and then introduced another item, took it away, and then put both up together, this made her cry. It was just too much. I knew which item she liked better, but she cried until both things were put away and I soothed her. I could then give her the thing she liked better. Daddy and I have decided that it’s time we start slowly introducing her to the world and getting her used to things and people. It makes my heart hurt to think of all the things this little girl has gone through and will go through, but yet I know we are good, loving parents and are trying our best. Bug absolutely adores her little sissy, gives her kisses, hugs, and toys as well as tries to feed her whenever she can (she fed her mashed potatoes last night, even got them in Littlest’s mouth first try).

Speaking of Bug, she was crowned the Queen of Whine yesterday. I took a box that Daddy brought groceries home in yesterday and started carving out a little car for her. She was so whiny that I made her a crown and dubbed her the Queen.

A Night of Firsts

Sep. 15, 2008 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

My girls are growing up so fast, it’s unbelievable. Tonight while Bug was getting her bath, we decided to put Littlest in for just a minute. Well, Bug was so excited, she kept saying Littlest’s name and saying, “Yea!” Then she was pouring water on Littlest and helping to wash her. It was cute! Littlest liked it too. She kept trying to grab what Bug had and smiling. So after the bath, both girls were lotioned up and put in their jammies. I put Littlest in the crib and Bug on the bed so I could finish up with bottles and get everybody snug. Littlest went to sleep right away. Bug took her bottle and when I went to lay down with her, she shook her head “no!” That’s a first. Usually she won’t settle down unless I lay down with her. (I know, I’m trying to break the habit.) Anyhow, I did a few more things and went back in and she shook her head “no” again. When I went back in again, she was sound asleep. Both girls were asleep at the same time. It was amazing! I don’t know what to do with myself. It’s 8 pm and I have BOTH girls asleep, formula made, stuff ready for work….now what do I do??? I’m too excited to sleep now. No new TV shows on. I guess I could actually sit down and talk with Daddy. Whoa…better not do that, he might get used to it!


13 pounds 2 ounces

Sep. 3, 2008 No Comments Posted under: Uncategorized

Littlest is 13 pounds 2 ounces today!  She gained about 28 grams a day for the past 7 days!   She isn’t looking so little anymore.  I might have to start calling her Chunky Monkey.  The doctor said that she has lost her preemie look, which I never thought she had a “look,” and she can also come off the monitor permanently….just as soon as I can let go.  It’s a comfort knowing it’s there even though I can sleep through it when it alarms. 

Happy Dance Time

Wherein the doctor fires herself

Aug. 13, 2008 1 Comment Posted under: Uncategorized

Maybe I’m too sensitive or maybe it’s been building up to this, but I think my doctor just fired herself yesterday.  

I have been going to this doctor for quite some time, years in fact.  I followed her from the big clinic when she left to start her own clinic.   After a while she wasn’t quite the way she was when she started out, too rushed.  I never felt I got things taken care of and her front office staff was awful, borderline incompetent.  We took Bug there since the doctor is a pediatrician/internal medicine and she was great at first.  When Littlest was discharged from the baby factory, they gave us names of physicians who specialize in preemies, so we went with the bigger pediatric clinic in town because of the specialized doctors, they were close, open 7 days a week with late hours and we always could get in without problems.   After a few problems with getting Bug diagnosed with ear infections, we moved Bug over to Littlest’s doctor.  Then I found out my doctor quit her affiliation with my hospital.   Yesterday was the clencher.  

I’ve been going to the best ever OB/GYN for pretty much the last 2-1/2 years as my primary doctor, so haven’t been to see my PCP very much.   I needed to have my ear checked and I actually got in to see my PCP the same day.   They added two more new doctors, but didn’t have enough exam rooms, so they emptied out an office and put in two little tables and two plain old chairs until they get tables and such ordered.   So I sat in this big, empty room with the thin walls.  I listened to the patient next door have some sort of angry discussion with someone else.   Then I heard all about the patient’s ER visits for anxiety, what the physician wanted to do and what medications they were going to try.   My doctor comes in and we talk about hearing the patient next door.  Then we do some catch up and she asks me if Littlest is going somewhere else.  I tell her yes and explain why.   Then she asks if I’m going to transfer Bug’s care there too.  I said “probably” (nonconfrontational passive person that I am).  At which time the doctor says that it’s probably better to have both kids at the same place.  Then she proceeds to say that if I don’t trust Littlest care to her, then I probably shouldn’t trust her to care for Bug, and if I don’t trust my kid’s care to her, then I probably shouldn’t trust my care to her.   Huh?  I told her that we needed better hours and Littlest has been in the hospital three different times and we need my hospital used and she isn’t affiliated with it anymore.   We went on through the visit and of course she didn’t find anything wrong with my ear, but prescribed something.  I didn’t get a chance to ask her about my other questions since she was so rushed and kinda peeved.   Shoot, one of my questions got answered by the magazine I was reading while waiting for the doctor.   I think I need to find a new doctor now. 

What I read in the magazine was a study talking about people who sleep only 4-5 hours a night (like me) and weight gain (again like me): “Researchers at the University of Chicago have found that partial sleep deprivation alters the circulating levels of the hormones that regulate hunger, causing an increase in appetite and a preference for calorie-dense, high-carbohydrate foods.”

I also found this:

“They found women who slept five or fewer hours a night were a third more likely to put on at least 33lbs more than sound sleepers during that time.”

They also mention that the lack of sleep triggers or doesn’t trigger two different types of hormones in the brain that deal with hunger and feeling full.    It also mentions that if you are a bad eater anyhow, this just makes it even worse.  You crave higher calorie, high carbohydrate, and high density foods.    

So basically I have to change my whole lifestyle - at least 7 hours of sleep a night (ha ha ha ha ha ha ha….), less caffeine (again HA!), and eating better types of food.  Also exercise more.  

So, anybody know of a good doctor?